Note on the “Dog Tag” image: Someone noticed there is a face of a Cairn Terrier in the center of the tag. If you click the picture you will open a larger version of the photo. It’s easier to spot the face in the larger photo.
Carol is not only a very talented potter, she is also very thoughtful. Carol was one of the very few people who knew the scheduled date of Divinity’s euthanization. Carol kindly emailed, so that when I left Dr. Steve’s office that fateful day, her condolences were waiting for me. I will never forgot Carol’s kindness.
The last two photo’s were taken by Carol, and include a “Fur Capsule” that is attached to cord placed between the lid, and the jar. This capsule contains strands of hair from Miss Divinity.
Should you decide to order an urn, or other items from Carol, please email her first to be certain she is currently taking orders. Don’t forgot to tell Carol, that Divinity sent you.
Note: If you look carefully, you can see the outline of a small dog, with short legs.
After emailing Carol to inform her of the existence of this image, Carol replied stating “Oh my Gosh!!! That is really unbelievable!!! I am stunned! That has happened twice now with your work!”
While I certainly do not want to celebrate Divinity’s death, I do want to share her joy of life.
Therefore, here are two pictures of Divinity enjoying one of her last rides. Going for a ride, was one of Divinity’s greatest pleasures.
I have also uploaded a new video of Divinity taken during this trip.
Divinity’s cancer was in an advanced stage at this point. As such, she was quite tired, and rested her head on her seat during this trip. However, my little lady did perk up for a short while, and she really enjoyed looking at the scenery of the countryside.
To watch the video of Divinity enjoying her ride, click HERE.
Divinity donated three pieces of warm clothing to be used by Cairn terriers rescued, and fostered by the Col Potter Cairn Terrier rescue organization.
It was Col Potter volunteers that rescued Divinity, along with eleven other Cairn terriers, as well as twenty plus Bassett Hounds in late November, 2008 from a puppy-mill in Southern Missouri.
Danielle, the founder of the Col Potter rescue stated that this clothing will stay with the rescue. After a foster dog(s) using this clothing is adopted, the clothing will then be given to another foster Cairn. Divinity’s clothing will be passed on from one needy Cairn to the next.
Divinity would be pleased knowing her clothing will bring warmth to Cairns in need.
Now Divinity did not like cold, but this clothing made cold rain, and even Minnesota winters bearable for my little lady.
The following are photo’s of Divinity wearing each of these items of clothing.
Winter Suit with Bonnet
Followers of Divinitys blog have asked me to post on this specific subject, among other topics. As writing about Divinitys loss is painful to me, I will be publishing about this subject in separate “installments,” and the posts following this one, might well be on other topics.
I will not publish new posts in chronological order. Whatever subject is comfortable for me at that particular time, will be the topic of the post that gets published.
So let us begin…
Since Divinitys euthanization, there have been moments I have been “testy.” Fortunately, right now, I am in a position to be by myself, so no one is on the receiving end of my occasional “attitude.”
When I returned home the day Divinity was euthanized, I sat at my computer in a daze. The one thing that kept me going that day, was watching the visitor count of how many people visited Divinity’s blog. The sheer volume of people who came to pay their respects to my little lady took me aback. In the first few days, more than “one thousand” people visited the blog; hundreds more have come to pay their respects since that fateful day. Divinity was important to more people, than I could possibly have imagined.
Divinity was euthanized on Wednesday, September, 10th. Two days later, I began to thoroughly clean my apartment. From vacuuming, cleaning out closets, dusting everything in sight, to washing walls, floors, and woodwork. Even the inside, and underneath the refrigerator received a thorough cleaning. Every day for the next week and a half was spent cleaning. If I was cleaning, I was not thinking about my loss, and thinking about losing Divinity, was far too painful to bear.
Several times during those first two weeks, I went for walks. Walks were something Divinity and I enjoyed for five years. However, after Divinity developed cancer, our long walks stopped, and in her final months, Divinity had difficulty walking at all.
It has now been more than three weeks since I lost my little lady. My apartment is clean, and I have too much time to think. I run errands as much as possible. However, there are only so many errands to run.
After completing the house cleaning, it was time to begin sorting. First on the agenda was Divinity’s belongings. What items to keep, what to give away, and which items to dispose of as they were either too worn out for another dog to use, or far too deteriorated to keep as a memento.
Note: Divinity’s belongings will be the subject of several posts in the future.
To be continued…
Cancer had weakened my little lady to the point where if she stood still for more than a minute or so, her rear legs would give out from under her. When this happened, she would slowly lower herself down until her bum was on the ground.
Note: Today marks three weeks since my little lady was euthanized, and this video is difficult for me to watch.
To watch the video of Divinity’s rear legs giving out from under her, click HERE.
Click the image to view a larger version of this picture.
Several followers of Divinity’s blog have contacted me, and requested I continue publishing posts beyond what I had initially envisioned following Divinity’s death.
Several of the requested subjects included:
* Dealing with a dying pet
* What prompted the decision to schedule Divinity’s euthanization?
* Coping with Divinity’s loss
* What personal effects of hers do I intend to keep?
* Which items will I give away?
People have also informed me they use Divinity’s blog as a reference tool. After careful thought, I have decided to publish additional posts.
*** Please note: Posts published after this one, will not be in chronological order. ***
Some suggestions will most likely require multiple posts. Such as “How did I cope watching Divinity dying.” That is a sensitive subject, and requires a lengthy discussion. Very few people like reading long pages on the Internet, as such, that specific subject will certainly be spread over multiple posts.
One blog subscriber wrote the following:
“… I passed on so much information to others on aging dogs that you posted, and even though I KNOW your intent is only to post a few more posts on your little lady, PLEASE consider keeping your blog up, maybe posting monthly because I ALSO GET how much time these take, and maybe do updates on what you are doing now and perhaps add other sections on grief which is very real with everyone who looses a loved dog. This is one thing I am so proud of in CP, the fact we can post that we lost a furry family member and we ALL GET IT, but too many people who don’t do volunteer work have no one to share with. I hear or read comments all the time about someone who has their pet die, and those they work with or friends, neighbors or family sympathize with them and then they just simply DON’T GET it a week later when reality hit and we are still suffering . . . it’s not unusual to have others say BUT THEY DIED A MONTH AGO! Like grief ends in a month.”
Note: Col Potter (CP) is the Cairn Terrier rescue I adopted Divinity from, and who rescued her from a puppy-mill in November, 2008.